A grain of salt

It’s been 4 months since I started Medschool. 2 months before COVID-19 stopped the Earth in its tracks.

My life has been changed in its entirety. All around upside down. You’ve heard me say this thousand times. And mostly implying a negative connotation to it. However, this time everything is alright. The change is for the better and oh so good.

I’ve started a separate page to document my medschool journey which I have yet to update it but that’s more of a college life themed writings.

Today, I’m a bit sick. Actually sick since yesterday. I’ve been feverish with a crippling stomach ache. I can barely write but I wanted to.

I also miss my dad. I miss hamza too. But I’m glad he’s home, just a few miles away, but my best friend is safe and home. I remember I would ask dad why he had to leave Pindi. Had he stayed, I’d be spending time with hamza and he’d answer, because I wanted to marry your mom.

I’m happy. I’m really happy but at the same time too tired and sick. I’m worried to the bone ever since my sister’s been exposed to the virus. Even thought her tests came negative, being a surgeon she refused to back down and she’s just been told that she has to get another test because she was exposed once again. Two of her colleagues are now infected.

I’m telling her to quit going to the hospital but she won’t listen. And I’m just not willing to lose her.

My sister and my best friend are the only people I have in my life that give me strength to carry on. I don’t know how to live in a world in which my sister does not exist. She’s been my mom and dad since forever, pushing me to be strong, being there for me all the time.

And hamza, I’ve got no words for him. He’s my person. The kind of human we ache to have in our lives forever. This path to spirituality that I’ve taken over the last year was because of his love compassion and kindness.

He pushes me, forces me to become the very best version of myself.

I can’t write further. My fever is killing me. I just got done with exams. And continuous assignments. Now my vivas begin from the fourth of May. I’ll update on a lot of things, about medschool about a lot of cool science, about different methodologies in engineering and health sciences or my dream of working with hamza and winning the nobel prize.

But if you wanna follow my medschool life, visit this page and follow my new medschool journal on Instagram.

A eulogy for humanity

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Water is life and yet you consumed
Pilferred polluted wasted it away
I wept for every oil spill every toxic dump
Every wave of sewage left me undone

Your paper plates and plastic knives
Have left me scarred and barren
My children are naked, hungry and alone
You took their shelter whilst I gave you home

Then you forced yourself on me
With bulldozers and tractors
And powerdrills and warhammers
How could I think I was safe with you
You’re the ones who defile your own fertile

The age of industrialization you often claim
Batteries, napalms, aeroplanes
So many killed without taking an aim
The enlightenment of human civilization
What a delightful conundrum, the wonders of creation
With smoke and smog and choking hazards
Your cards are finally on the table

I wept and begged but you ne’er heard
Ravaged every thrush, deer and songbird
Til I realized my children you’re not
Scoundrels, wretched warmongers in the lot

It’s time you witness the grandeur of your doom
I’ll breathe fire lets light up the fumes
Your fragile lungs are glass, oh! dear
Let me huff and puff a little bit of air

Sit back rejoice your end is nigh
I’ll make sure you suffer before you die
You’ll wish you could breathe the air you pollute
I concur, it’s all done, now your story concludes

© 2020